Interesting Times

Thanks to my dear Tanya, I signed up for Notes from the Universe (www.tut.com/resources/notes/). You get daily messages and little reminders that are lovely. I got this one the other day and absolutely loved it:

"The presumption, Annika, at all times and under all circumstances, should always be that you are good enough, worthy enough, and lovable enough. And that you are exactly the right kind of person, in the right place, at the right time. Otherwise, you wouldn't have been instilled with such dreams in the first place.

Love you,
The Universe"

Life has been...difficult? recently. In the grand scheme of things, I have absolutely nothing to be complaining about. All in all, I am happier than I have ever been in my life. However, I am also (finally!!) at the core of working through reasons while I subconsciously hate myself and hold myself back from getting what I want. Even realising the depth of that hatred was shocking. While I'm thrilled to be working on it and finally getting rid of it, it makes life less than pleasant right now. Crazy dreams leading to lack of sleep, crankiness, physical pain, illness - all the lovely physical manifestations of working through this latest round. Unfortunately, I think it's going to take some time to get through, but when I finally come out the other side it's going to be amazing. In the meantime, I try to control my temper and not take it out on anyone else, try to keep my eye on the end prize and try to appreciate every day that I am alive.

Today I received this message from the Universe:

"When you finally get that call, meet that person, walk that walk, and live that dream, Annika, do you think you'll even care that there were a few dark and scary moments in a journey that made them all possible?

Trust me, you won't even remember.

The Universe"

Talk about timely!!

Anyway, apologies for the rambling. I struggle to put a lot of this into words. As Garvey once told me, language wasn't designed to express these concepts.

This moment of rambling was brought to you by the letter H and the number -1.